On a more serious note...

I've had a few things on my mind and I've bottled them up and when I talked to my mom tonight the dam finally broke. I feel so helpless. I hate how my dad is treating my mom. I hate how he's refusing to get help; I hate how I can't be there to help in the situation. I hate how my brother is treating my parents. I hate how no one in my family is in peace with themselves. My mom will be. She's moving and starting a new life, a peaceful life. Who knows what's going to happen with my brother. My brother and I don't even talk. And I'm scared my dad will drink himself to nothingness. Why make someone's life a living hell when they don't want anything to do with you? Just let them be. I know some family members read this and I'm sorry if I offended any of yall but this has been on my mind.
Also trying to find a 'babysitter' has been frustrating! This is the first time in my air force career that I took Chrstimas vacation and it's been one thing after another. And right at the start of the holidays, we had to reformat 40 computers at work and save people's profiles and then put them back on.; hope we even grabbed the right profiles or get them at all. There were three people that didn't all their stuff back and I know how it would feel to loose everything! It sux! And it's the worse feeling in the world to know you are the cause of it. I have to take the screaming, and the disappointment and then I feel even lower about my job qualifications. It's just been a bad week! I took next week off too just so I could calm myself down and get prepared for the vacation. Thanks for letting me vent. I just had to let it out.